Personal thoughts about suspension

I'm a player who almost used Kings Gambit as the main player on other sites, but I saw a tournament that started from a certain line on Kings Gambit in the Reches Arena tournament. But I want to reach a higher ranking and a higher rating. For the rest of 7 to 8 hours, I memorized all the engine lines at the beginning of a specific situation in Kings Gambit and used it in the game.

Reference game

As you saw in the next game, the memorized line is similar to the bot and you can see that the accuracy suddenly decreases.

My personal opinion and position

I admit that I have entered the realm of something that should never be done and I do not deny the fact of my cheating at all. I admit the fact of my cheating. This is clear that I broke the terms of use because I increased my skills by memorizing the engine line. I don't think I can say anything other than "I'm sorry" in this situation.

I feel really sorry for Lichess and Players (harmed because of me). If they don't forgive me, I think it's just to leave Liches forever.
I'm sorry for disappointing everyone who has been against me so far, and I'm going to give up the ATCM title. I don't deserve this at all.