Sacked material and was completely winning, but then I blundered

It just happened! I was on my route to play the best attacking game of my life but then I blundered. I forgot that my queen defended my rook, and... and I moved it—I lost my rook. It was a 30 minute game, it so it hit harder. I played till the very end, but then I blundered #1 from time pressure. I feel bad even solving the checkmate captcha. I don't even want to touch chess right now.

And to add insult, I almost played the right move on move 23. I was about to play Bb8, but then I changed my mind for some damn reason. I knew Bb8 was better, but I literally got scared of being down so much material. You know, you have to be a bit brave and just play the best move. I wanted to win material, but I ended losing.

I think you have a lot of creativity and this is why you should continue playing chess. Your game was very interesting. It's not important who won, it's a game you can learn from a lot and the variations you chose to play are very interesting! So don't be sad and look forward to more cool attacking games.

The position you had been in is very complex. It takes a while to figure out the right moves here, even for good players, so don't be so harsh on yourself. It seems like you have trouble to find mate. "where's the mate?" - you have a lot of tactical skill, which is good, all it needs is to find a way to finish it off :) If you need help with that you can text me and we can look at this game together.